Real life.

[Brock 63]

I am depressed as fuck. I am so over life it's not even funny. I know I should be grateful im even alive but whats the point

[Ben 105]

I am depressed as fuck. I am so over life it's not even funny. I know I should be grateful im even alive but whats the point

 

I've been running with depression on and off for the past 7 years or so and I absoutely understand how you're feeling. When you've been hit with a particularly bad bout of it you won't want to do this, you'll think what's the point? You'll not want to see anyone or talk to anyone because honestly who's going to understand how you're feeling? Like everyone else is in deep water with arm bands on and you're struggling to stay afloat, or like that picture that shows a depressed man getting up in the morning, putting on a full-body happy suit, walking round all day coming home and taking it off.

 

 

The thing is, it's a mental illness. Now I want you to get better, I fully understand that coping with it is going to take a lot of time and energy and when you're depressed you have none of the latter at all. That being said let me guide you through what' s helped me;

 

 

First of all, eating a banana. My Doctor recommended this to me about 4 years ago when I was first considering admitting that I may just have depression and I wasn't miserable all the time. They release and encourage the release of Seratonin in the body which a depressed person lacks and requires to lessen the feeling. So first of all mate if you've got one in you've got no reason not to go eat a banana now as a start.

 

 

Second, watch this video: 

 

Skip to 1 minute because even though she's doing good that girl's voice makes me want to eat battery acid. He's a very real, down to earth bloke and he'll tell you what you need to hear not just what you want to hear. Then watch this, about my next point, exercise; 

 

 

Third, Exercise. You create blood flow, the brain releases dopamine and seratonin, these are the counters to depression that are very hard to come by sitting here on Runescape. This is absolutely the hardest part of depression, you know it'll make you feel better mate, you know it will but if you can't be bothered playing Runescape you're not going to want to go the gym. It's been the past two months i've even bothered after I used to go the gym for about 2 years none stop. Get all loose and spread out, I hate push ups. I bench press, Deadlift, Overhead press but Push ups proper demotivate me. Squats with no weight are great for this.

 

 

I personally feel the absolute best thing to do is run, 20 minutes if that, maybe put a bit of music on go for a jog and run and get yourself tired, don't just stop push it till' you're knackered, come back in wind down. Even going for a work a lot of the time will sort you out.

 

 

Mate last week I was here off work for 3 days, felt great wanted to play RS all day (And I did) and 4 hours in it hit me and I felt awful, like everything was hopeless and just had to get on my weights, listen to Arnold Schwarzenegger talk about his old routines and listen to Kevin Hart. That put me in a much better mood, open the windows go sit outside for half an hour even in the back listening to some music. Mortal beings weren't made to sit inside and click, no matter how much I love Runescape I spend too much time indoors and getting out absolutely takes away the feeling.

 

 

 

Even last night right, I was off, the day before i'd been to Alton towers got up Querter to 7 in the morning ended up hundreds of miles away with my mates just having a laugh got home about 11 felt incredible. Next morning woke up (You should ask my Mrs) complete opposite, I felt useless, angry, irritated by anything and felt like nothing I was going to do would cheer me up. Ended up having a strum about 3 times just to feel anything (Don't care if anyone's offended let's be real) and it just wasn't helping. My little sister and grandparents asked me if i'd meet them in town at 4:30pm for something to eat, it was a lovely day and I just wanted to stay in and clear my mood and it wasn't till' 3pm that I realized neither of those things would work.

 

 

Got showered, headphones on, walked the bus stop got to town sun shining on me seeing people breathing in the first bit of sun and summer we'd seen all year. Didn't feel much better but as soon as I saw my family and had to be physically involved in conversations it started lifting, it was the second thing on my mind behind everything else because I wasn't slouched in a chair alching fucking black dragonhide bodies with nothing to think about. By the time I got in I felt much much better.

 

 

Final point, Medication. Almost nobody wants to take meds for Depression I felt like a smack head discussing it with my doctor who in fairness  really wasn't helpful. I've got a mate who swears by them, and I myself couldn't stand them. Started on one called Sertraline and oh my God yes for the month I took them I didn't feel depressed once!... Or happy, or excited, or scared, or lonely, or anything. They turned me into an absolute zombie, my dick stopped working I had no drive to do anything I felt tired constantly, sick I felt my tongue on the back of my throat every single day as if it shouldn't have been there, I lost my memory and not just forgetting, I walked to get my bike fixed and ended up at Tesco for 20 minutes no idea where my bike was or how i'd got there I had to ring my girlfriend to retrace my steps. I hated them tablets.

 

 

Then I tried Citalopram. They were much better, again dick problems and normally i'm like a stallion ;] A bit of memory loss, a constant attitude and behavioural scoring of the most average human in existence, no ups or downs just getting by with no aspirations or goals. That's fine for some people and most people don't react that way but I did and once I came off them for about 5 months I didn't even think about depression because any thoughts, good or bad were better than being a zombie. It picked up again a few months ago when me and my Mrs moved in together and I took exercise up, I have my ups and downs as i've already said but try everything. Don't feel bad for taking tablets that's what they're there for. Don't feel stupid going for a little walk for no reason other than just doing it, and don't be afraid to sack off Runescape for a bit because your mental health is absolutely hands down much more important than the obligations you put on yourself. We'll still be here, and we want you to be here with us and if you can't do that without looking forward to it without being in the right state of mind it needs fixing.

 

 

TL:DR: Do some squats, go for a walk when you can or a jog or run if you can manage it to release dopamine, eat a banana to release seratonin, watch them videos they have fantastic real advice, talk to people about it and ultimately get to your doctors it's one meeting and they'll prescribe the starting does for anti-depressants (Not addictive in the doses you'll take don't let people's bad experiences scare you) and see the improvements. Best of luck mate, we all want the best for you you're a human you're a brother to our race not just some really shit zerker pure, being happy is what life's about and if nothing you're doing now can improve that then follow my advice because loads of things will! Good luck

 

 

 

Ben

[Brock 63]

Ben, I really appreciate you taking to time to reach out to me. Ive watched the videos and Im currently going to head out and just be outside for today to see how that goes. I don't really want to take meds for depression because I want to be naturally happy.. like I dont want to be reliant on something to make me happy. Im going to take that videos advice and go get some omega3 tablets as well because it mentioned that it would help a bit. I have been feeling like this for as long as I can remember. I have no sexual drive at all and Im sure the depression is the reasoning behind that. I have a physically demanding job but it probably isnt enough exercise to make me happy. my emotions are all over the place and im not sure why but im over that feeling. I just want to be happy

[Esca 131]

If you need to talk to someone I hope you know I'm there please feel open to hmu

[boxxy 6]

hit me up if u ever need to in ts or w.e bro

 

talk to your primary care doctor if you trust him 

[Veng Speeeed 471]

awww mate so sorry to hear this.. ive only been in this clan around 2-3 weeks but Ive noticed already a lot of people like you so you must be a nice guy bro... just keep your head up man and as you can see from peoples replys you have a lot of people here for you if you need to chat man including myself!

[Sybren 2,255]

wow @@Ben, I appreciate the time/effort you've put into your reply towards Brock.

And @@Brock if you ever need someone to talk to hit me up. I like to listen to people to try and understand what they're going thru.

 

Heads up buddy!

[Natte Poes 62]

If you need someone too talk too il be there for you buddy.

[Brock 63]

I really appreciate it guys

[slawa 11]

Go vegan.

 

No joke. It helped me. 

[Brock 63]

Tbh I couldnt ever do that